Sense of Control

The True High — Unveiling the Strength of Genuine Control

There’s a peculiar freedom that intoxication offers—one that feels like liberation from our own minds, a temporary relief from overthinking, self-doubt, fear, or pain. I've been there. I’ve dipped into those moments where the noise quiets, where the words flow, where creativity feels boundless. But here’s the paradox—while we feel ‘in control’ in those states, we are actually at the furthest point from true control. The mind is tricked into thinking it has found the secret door to bliss, but the truth is—it’s borrowed ecstasy, rented confidence, and temporary wisdom.

This blog is about reclaiming what’s already within us: the sense of control—over our thoughts, body, senses, emotions, and ultimately, our entire being. It’s about how I transitioned from being someone who relied on altered states to access my inner genius to someone who can now touch that genius sober, fully awake, and completely alive.

Let’s take a deep breath. Let’s begin.

1. The Illusion of Intoxicated Clarity

In those moments when we’re intoxicated—be it by substances, distractions, people, or even emotions—we feel like we’re in a higher plane of existence. Our thoughts loosen up, our body feels light, our fears vanish, and our tongue flows with wit and charm. Everything seems easier.

But let’s be honest: it’s not clarity. It’s an illusion.

When I was intoxicated, I felt witty, poetic, and deep. I could speak in a certain flow, write with a rhythm that felt divine, and think with layers I hadn’t accessed before. But the next morning, that brilliance faded. What remained was fatigue, confusion, and guilt. It didn’t take me long to realize—I was outsourcing my power.

2. The Side Effects of Escaping Reality

While intoxication might momentarily liberate you, it silently steals from you too. It weakens the very muscles of discipline and inner awareness that we need to thrive. Physically, it drains your energy. Mentally, it distorts your thinking. Spiritually, it disconnects you from your truest self.

I’ve felt it in my bones—the dull ache of lost time, the regret of forgotten ideas, the realization that my body was carrying burdens it didn’t deserve. Slowly, it became clear: I wasn’t getting high. I was falling low, disguising it as elevation.

3. The Turning Point: Seeing Through the Fog Then came the shift

One evening, I found myself sitting quietly, completely sober, and I decided to write. No filters, no substance, just me and the page. I thought I wouldn’t be able to write like I did when I was ‘in the zone’—but I surprised myself. The words were pure, clear, and powerful. They weren’t laced with false bravado—they were honest, intentional, and real.

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That’s when I realized I don’t need intoxication to be creative, expressive, or insightful. I just need to be fully present with myself.

4. Control Over Thoughts: The First Mastery

Our thoughts are like untrained wild horses. Under the influence, they feel tamed, but it's a sedative taming—an artificial calm. Real control comes from learning to ride them with grace and strength.

I started meditating. Not the kind where you sit like a monk for hours—just 10 minutes of observing my thoughts every day. It was difficult at first. But slowly, I learned to pause between stimulus and response. I learned to guide my mind instead of being dragged by it.

The first miracle of sobriety was this: I started thinking better.

5. Control Over Body: Living in a Temple

While intoxicated, our body feels alien. Movements become unconscious, and coordination slips. We forget we live in this magnificent machine that responds to care, intention, and awareness.

Now, every day, I walk with more purpose. I eat with more awareness. I breathe deeply. I don’t punish my body for the sake of fun. I reward it with nourishment, movement, and rest. And in return, my body rewards me with energy, confidence, and clarity.

The second miracle of sobriety: I started feeling alive in my own skin.

6. Control Over Senses: Rewiring Desire

Intoxication often hijacks the senses. Colors seem brighter, music sounds deeper, and touch feels electric. But all of this is achievable in a sober state—when the mind is tuned to the moment.

I trained myself to appreciate beauty without excess. The taste of a warm meal, the rhythm of a good song, the scent of fresh air—these became my highs. I didn't need artificial enhancements anymore.

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The third miracle of sobriety: My senses became sharper, more appreciative of life's subtleties.

7. Control Over Emotions: From Reactivity to Response

Perhaps the most challenging, yet most rewarding mastery—emotional control. In intoxicated states, emotions either explode or vanish. You either feel too much or nothing at all.

Now, I allow myself to feel deeply without being overwhelmed. Anger, joy, sorrow, and love—they come and go like guests. I welcome them, learn from them, and then let them leave.

The fourth miracle of sobriety: I became emotionally intelligent.

8. The High of Purpose

Here's the best part. Once I started mastering these domains, I discovered a new kind of high—the high of purpose.

I love to speak. I love to write. I love to read. And earlier, I thought I needed to be in a "zone" to do these well. Now, I know that zone was always inside me. I just had to clear the fog.

These days, when I’m writing with all my senses present, when I’m speaking with full awareness, when I’m reading and absorbing every line—I feel elevated. Not because I’ve escaped reality, but because I’ve embraced it.

This is my target now—to be eloquent in my expression, sharp in my intellect, and fluid in my communication. And I’m high on that. Really high. But this time, there are no side effects—only side benefits.

9. My Request to You

To everyone reading this who has experienced those intoxicated states—use them as a reference, not a destination. Remember how it felt when you were in that flow? Good. Now chase that feeling sober.

When you're next in that zone under influence, observe yourself. Notice what you like about yourself in that moment. Is it your confidence? Your humor? Your courage? Your creativity?

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Then, when you’re sober, rebuild those traits. Brick by brick. Thought by thought. Action by action.

And soon, you’ll find you don’t need anything outside of you to feel elevated. It was always you. You are the high. You are the magic.

10. A New Era of Conscious Living

This journey isn’t about becoming boring or restrained. It’s about becoming deeply powerful. A person with a true sense of control doesn’t just survive—they create, impact, and thrive.

I’m not against fun. I’m not against experiences. I’m for awareness.

I want a life where I wake up feeling good, sleep feeling accomplished, and live each day with purpose and passion. That’s the life I’m building. That’s the life I invite you into.

Intoxication gave me a glimpse of what I could be. But sobriety gave me the tools to become it.

If this blog resonates with even one of you, if it makes you question your patterns, if it sparks even the tiniest desire to reclaim your inner control—I’ll consider this my most successful piece.

Because at the end of the day, all I’m trying to do is share my truth. And if my truth becomes your breakthrough, then we’re all winning.

Here’s to control. Here’s to clarity.

Here’s to being high on life, purpose, and presence.

And here’s to you—your most powerful, eloquent, alive self.